Life in West Virginia: FINALLY, THE END OF THE WEEK . . .

Friday, March 02, 2007

FINALLY, THE END OF THE WEEK . . .

Of course, I found out this AM that I have a project in my ART class! AAAAHHHH It's not too bad, he is allowing us 3 different ways to do it; written (800 words), 3 minute speech with visuals and PowerPoint Presentation, 16-32 slides. I am not real proficient with PP but I know it won't be speech. Dropped it twice in the past 16 years in college. LMAO . . . . but so goes the TGIF . . . now it is I have to work my butt off all weekend but that's okay too, hopefully I will not be sick on Tuesday after the epidural on Monday and can make it to class to find these things out . . .

Had an awful day yesterday but one good thing is that I am getting an x-ray tomorrow and then probably and MRI. My guess, I am going to have to have metal supports surgically implanted in my back. Guess they can open me up in the same scar so, that's a plus, not a good plus but at least I won't look like Frankenstein. Of course, no one ever sees my back since I don't do mid-riffs, low-cuts or bathing suits really. Haven't for a long time. But that'd be cool to have swimming as P/T. I always loved it and haven't been in years. I think I took Joey to Southwood in '01. Well, there was the time GREG pushed me into the pool with my jeans and all on but I didn't swim . . . I just got pissed.

Still trying to get the house in order. When you don't have all your furniture, it is not a realistic thing to attempt. No dressers=Storage boxes . . . but the furniture will come when there is not 5 inches of mud to get to my porch. OR 5 inches of ice. LOL The snow is okay as long as the ground is still frozen good but that never happened
since there was ice under it.

Got my desk cleaned off today, sorta. My printer is back over here (the good one that is really mom's . . . . XOXOXO to Mom. I couldn't get by without it. Top of the line laser. We had to get a new toner cartridge, ordered it and it never came and the charge never appeared so we went to Circuit City and Mom flipped over the price. The one online was much cheaper but, we didn't get it and it certainly delayed some things I needed to print to analyze for:

the MKTG class I am dropping but all the blame does not lie on the toner cartridge as far as dropping the class goes. We will give that to Gary and Angie. THANKS GUYS!!! YOU WON'T GET ALL THAT VISITATION TIME AND I ASSURE YOU, I WILL DO AND AM DOING EVERYTHING POSSIBLE TO HAVE PSYCH EVALUATIONS ON YOU BOTH AND ASSURING THAT CHILD IS NOT SUBJECTED TO YOUR FUCKED UP THINKING AND FUCKED UP LIVES, WHICH I KNOW YOU LIVE.

Tell me folks, I have a comment section there, am I out of line for being enraged over:
1. Being blindsided by him filing an individual parenting plan, which is because the parents can't agree(but she filled it out) after we (GARY AND I ON THE PHONE) agreed to meet the week following his demanding phone call that I come in that night, on the icy roads, with a baby running a fever of 102. I told him fill it out the way you think it should be, I will fill mine out the way I think it should be and we'll get together and see what we can do. He said okay and then signed them the following day and Angie wrote on the motion that they contacted me and I never contacted them back. Um, I did contact them the following week, but no, since the agreement was to meet the following week, I hadn't contacted them 24hrs later.
2. Two adults who have spent less than 8 hours with MY baby, wanted to take her February 2, 3 and 4 AND Angie hadn't seen her since Oct and the last time Gary had seen her was when I stopped by his work during lunch, with Bridgette with me on November 9th, 2006 and he spent about 12-15 minutes seeing her but kept trying to get me to hold her (when i couldn't because of my back, that is why Bridgette was with me) and they passed her back and forth while they chit-chatted about Gary knowing Bridgette's mom from WAAAAAY back. I told Gary that I would be home all day on Sunday, if he wanted to come and see her, I would be watching football and he said that he was supposed to go to Chester's home and help him do some things, which is about 1 or 2 miles from my home and that he would probably stop by. He has not seen her since. He never called nor did he stop by and he has not contacted me to see her since.

THEY ARE STRANGERS TO HER. WTF?!?!? Is this not a little out of line to take a 14.5 month old child to your home when she doesn't know you? Did they think she'd be O-K? OMG That would be like me selling her to someone.

One day, this little baby is surrounded by the people who have cared and loved her since before she was born and then her world is turned upside down by two people who don't even know how to spell her middle name . . .let alone they don't know what are her favorite toys, bath-time games, bedtime rituals, her fav Sprout shows and most importantly, her sleeping blankie??? My god. Please, if someone out there knows a specialist who would disagree with me that this would tramatize her, please let me know. Maybe I am wrong and she'd be fine but I really think I am right. If anyone knows an early childhood psychologist, below age 3, please let me know. I have a few questions and there are none at the center that I took her to and there are none at the center where the visitation will probably occur. She is coming around some with strangers, but that is with me or Mom there. THREE DAYS?????????

I cannot comprehend what was going through their minds. They are NOT thinking about the child, whose interests are first and foremost. OR, they both are complete idiots. I mean, like have low IQ's. SHE's an LPN! She knows ALL ABOUT KIDS cause she watches her sister's kids and they come and stay there sometimes too. Um, she's been with them since day one, in all likely hood since she is the AUNT!

It is like since he was ordered to pay support in January, they think he is a daddy (**wave the wand, you are now daddy) now and has rights. Rights, to a piece of property. Did I mention that they wanted CA 10 days a month according to Angie's schedule because "the mother is unemployed". That was addressed in court during the child support hearing. Evidently Gary didn't tell her that it didn't matter anyway. Evidently, Gary had no part in drawing it up, which I hope is what is going on and I honestly believe she is pushing him to do this.

WHEW. That took a lot outta me. But just the way they (she) filled out the papers, trying to put me in a bad light, went through me like a knife and still does. Sure, I didn't contact them back. She left out it had only been 24 hrs and we agreed to next week. And "the mother is unemployed" thing raises my blood pressure a month and a half later. SHE KNEW I WAS GOING TO SCHOOL. We talked about it. So since I am unemployed, I have no schedule and I mean nothing since "the mother is unemployed". FUCK HER. I was working TWO jobs when I fucked my back up and she knows all about my back problems and surgeries and the physical therapy that just ended in OCT and I was in school in AUG. WTF. She is a manipulative, controlling, freaked out bitch. She even told me she had to "remind him to call". That was when I didn't even have to let him see her. She even said one time, I've been on him to call but, you know . . . .

Yeah, I know. He doesn't care and you think a baby around or having one together will fix your failing relationship. Well, when you have your baby shortly and it doesn't change him and then the child starts suffering as it grows older, you'll figure out what I know. THAT'S WHY I DIDN'T TELL HIM. I DIDN'T WANT HIM IN OUR LIVES. HE IS A DRUNK, MEAN WHEN HE IS DRUNK, WORKS HARD BUT YOU WILL NEVER HAVE A REAL RELATIONSHIP WITH HIM BECAUSE HE DOESN'T KNOW HOW TO LOVE.

I know this from observance, not a broken heart. My heart doesn't break over one night stands. My heart doesn't break over a few month relationship. It was a one night stand and he told me he didn't have GF and then well the next weekend the GF asked me why I wouldn't talk to them. AND I TOLD HER. I ALSO TOLD HER I ASKED HIM THREE TIMES AND HE SAID HE HAD NO GF. Went out with him twice, slept with him once, then his girlfriend came in for the weekend and guess what. Um, she knew me and couldn't figure out why I wasn't smiling and waving at her. I told her I didn't feel comfy around Gary and she asked why and I told her I went out with him. She said a long time ago and I said no and she said when and I said Sunday and Wednesday night. She dropped him that night. I found out later that there were other girls too but didn't find out til after I did, otherwise, I wouldn't have slept with him. Missy T. is a drunken whore and thank god i don't have aids. I wasn't in love with him. I have known him for years but he always had a GF. Thought he was nice, we have common friends and interests and all that. Not in love tho and well, after a week, I considered him scum.

WHEW (squared). I am done now. Here is a picture of my baby and whether or not she knows her dad is up to him now, not me. I was forced to tell who it was in order to keep my medical insurance and well, we knew I had to have back surgery. Its not like there was anyone else. I don't sleep around much, it had been four months since I had been with someone and well, we all have urges. My urge turned into a beauty of a child and I wouldn't change it for anything in the world and would LOVE to talk to Becky Farnsworth Gorsky sometime. Apologize to her again and then accept her thanks and just try to figure out WTF he was thinking . . .

The posts should be more regular now and less, um, venting. I just about have it all out. No I don't. Cuz I still can't figure out WTF they/she was thinking while filling out the papers . . . .